I must admit how hard it is for me this way. Each day I struggle to resist myself. You don't deserve me and that I know it is beyond impossible. To love you is foolish. I must admit it's insane and that suffering this pain is too much. I don't deserve this. I hate it because I am just making myself fall deep into a pit of tragedy. I want to forget you because I am just making it harder for myself every day. I can't just be there sitting beside you, feeling nothing more than just friends. And I thought that nobody would ever understand or even care just a little. To them, this is just like an illusion and a fantasy. It will never happen. I am afraid. I am afraid of falling for you deeper every day. I care about you and it hurt me much when people take advantage of you. I hate you when you get so sweet and touchy at times. It just makes me so weak. This should be ended. This should stop. I couldn't stop thinking about you when you are not around. Everything about you makes me blush. Funny how I end this way. To realize how our world is different. How our gods are apart. This is really insane! I think I love you but I'm sorry that I love you. I can't tell you but I do. Even saying "Thank You's" has become so hard lately. I'm sorry but I hate to feel this way. I can't love you every day and pretend like I don't. Like it's nothing in each time we stare at each other's eyes. I lost every second of a heartbeat every time. I want to forget you and just be able to live like it's normal. Like I don't have this uncomfortable airspace in my heart. I just want to undo the day I met you or unmet you at all. Thank you for being such a nice friend and goodbye...