I can't fathom how someone can be so in love. Or how do you even tell if what you feel is really love?
Let me tell you. You don't know it's love until you feel it. It may be just an obsession. An attraction on the physical attribute of that person. Maybe his perfume. Maybe his hair? But what if he isn't physically attractive? You are obsessed with his jokes or just being around him. Being able to share things like anything. Just anything. Like he is the most relatable person you share secrets with. Like he doesn't mind who you are or even what you are more so.
I am not easily attracted and regardless of how attractive the person is. I always have these walls that no matter what I just can't be as open as I am with him. Though I may be not the friendliest person at first because I don't normally want to start a conversation. Okay, unless I really really like you. (Pun intended). I get it!
For a very long time, again. I feel like there's a strong connection with this person. This scares me because I always end up losing that person. The scariest was the last one. I know this sounds so weird. I'm not sure it may also be just coincidental. Sometimes it just felt terrible that that person needs to leave or go, and he left forever. Is this a curse or something, I'm not sure.
Now is like something leading into that same faith just like others. I'm afraid that it is and it's all like it is a possibility. I am scared for him. I am scared of how it could end this way if it will. If it will...