I thought it's over. I thought I knew how to resist you. I'm not sure if this happens to people normally. When you constantly fight with yourself over an obsession. An obsession you'd usually end up fading away that feeling. You know you like the person but then again I would ask myself. Do I have the courage or would he? Should I keep it this way? Friends! I know how impossible this is. I know it's never gonna happen. And that sucks because I'm slowly losing my mind thinking about him over and over again. The infatuation, the longing, and all the questions I would never have the courage to ask.
One day I should be over you and keep things as if I never had imagined the impossible dreams. I wonder when and sometimes it brought me to just be gone. Move away from everything. Shut the world about him and the attention of his presence. Why does it have to be this way? Why does it need to be so hard to love? One time I was happy but suddenly it's killing me. I feel like I just want to disappear or undo things the day before we met. I should not let myself fall into this place.
It hurts me. It hurts so bad every day. Though I tried so hard not to think about it. I just can't ignore it. I can't ignore him. I get jealous. I get so weak.
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