When we started a relationship we never had any idea how it will go. We just go with it. Whether as friends or lovers. All we know is we are happy when we are with the person and that we are getting to be little by little a part of their story. We started from conversations about silly things going to more serious ones. Eventually, we started sharing our secrets and wild confessions. We started to trust the person like they really meant the same to us. How do you really tell when they meant all and nothing but their loyalty to you as a friend or lover?
We move on every day. Just like how everything else in this world goes, we continue on with our daily lives. While it's true that our relationship plays a big impact on our lives, we can only be considerate of our own happiness at times. We have our own personal and constant battles, maybe to ourselves. Getting us scared to share it because we don't even know if they would understand. We are so unsure that we even don't want to talk to people who we think will just be another weight on our shoulders. So we drift away from them without even knowing we are taking away too every small piece of that relationship. How do you expect them to help you, your friend, or your lover?
Help yourself too. You can only have the courage if you want to break the walls of your own. You can't expect your friend or your lover to break those walls if you can't stand for yourself. Be responsible. Being you can never be best played by anyone else because you know yourself who you really are. It should start with you. You can't expect others to tell you what's wrong every time you're broken. You are the one who's only entitled to make a decision for yourself. Their voices may be a reflection of your actions but that doesn't mean you need them all the time. You can obviously tell when the mirror gets blurry, you should immediately act on it. You clean it yourself. Right?
Loyalty in every relationship is one thing but having the courage to salvage it means everything. Appreciate it and be grateful anyways even if you think it's too late. You need to help yourself first before anybody else can because they trust you that you can. And by all means, you should help yourself first before expecting anyone else to help you. It will never be late when you think that things are already broken. We should trust our own personal capabilities to deal with and overcome our own challenges. Some people may be looking up to you, but when they thought that you are not the same person they knew the first time. Expect your friend or lover to tell you. A friend who cares and values you. A lover who is more than willing to let you be yourself than being someone else's, slave?
I realized that sometimes even if you do things, good or bad. People will still judge you. You can only do so much to help them. I can't let you believe me all the time but I mean it when I say it. Or write it. I just want to be happy. It may hurt you but that will all set us free. That will make us all heal the wounds, faster.