It's been more than 8 years as far as my memory can recall. No, you did recall it actually! Did I ever think it was love? I don't know. I was not sure and still unsure if this has ended already. After a while, it seems like we were lost again. This time was it me? Did I leave you hanging? I don't know. Unsure of so many things. Something doesn't seem just right...
I remember when we used to laugh, meeting before going to work. I admit there was excitement! There was a joy. All of a sudden you vanished. It totally came as surprise to me. Yet I never spent much time contemplating what just happened. All I knew was it did happen and you were gone, for good. That's it. It ended just like that!
I moved on and totally lived through strangers of your memories. However just like the movies. You came back without a warning, without signs. #ItsASmallWorld after all is real. Yes, I was ecstatic. That feeling that very moment was palpable. Much more like unconsciously conscious. Utterly mute when I said "Hi". It was fast. It was more like a split second then memories came rumbling. No! The time slowed down...
My mind flashed montages of thoughts the day you left. Too many questions occupied my mind yet rather acting like I wasn't bothered.
The following day I got your message. How did you?...and why? But I was so happy you did. I thought you just came at the right time. I got extremely delusional and convinced myself that I liked you.
Why did it end here now? We had a chance but I have never seen such a moment like us being together now. Eight years made as realized a lot of things. Taught both of us the wisdom of love and life. I wish that you will be happier and stronger. No, I don't want to fool myself and I want you to feel the same thing. It just doesn't feel right. There's something that tells me that my doubts are there for reason. I chose to leave to help you. To learn things your way to find yourself. Search for the real you before anybody can love you...
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