It's not you that I wanted!
You always thought that I do.
I lied, I admit it but then I lied again.
How do I begin? This shouldn't sound like an apology. You left me and everything ends there after all. You came again and we tried to fix it all, but it's gone. Something's not worth the try. I cried, we both cried and this is somehow a fallen part of my broken heart. Confused with my thoughts that you are just around. But something's gone, something's not the same anymore.
I never regret the days now or even the days we had before. Just be it, though I don't wanna talk about it. The moment hunts when you are visible. When you seemed to be so near. When you seemed to be beside me always.
It couldn't be sweet, it couldn't be romantic. I hate it. I admit, I don't but then again I lied. There's always a touch melting towards the bottom of my heart. It's enigmatic and it's pathetic. How could I love you when you are not around?
This isn't a fight. This isn't remorse. I cursed the day you left, I cursed the day we met. I don't...it isn't easy to forget, it isn't easy to remember. I was taken and I was hunted since the day we got tied. Since the day we vowed.
You are here as a child. You beg, and I told you to don't. I was uneven to forget the truth. I admit I do, I don't but then I lied. I heard it and it was enough. It hurts but it's more than what it's worth. We talked and it's final. We've moved on and it's good. This is something both of us need for growth. These days could be lonelier but it is what it is. We've gone our ways and we chose the days. I love you always, it's a mystery in grace. I do, I don't but then again I lied...
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